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* sigh* I bet you’re surprised to see yet another blog from me. That’s right. The blog isn’t dead just yet. I just haven’t really had the motivation to write for a while, until 2 weeks back. So to keep you all company in the meantime,please, enjoy a collection of my thoughts dating from 27/06 to 06/07 _________________________________________ 06/27 11:48 It’s 11:48… I feel somehow. Like sad, but not sad if that makes sense. Might as well be in my own world right now. Everyone’s going crazy talking and listening to music. Sommer listen to my Drill/house playlist and isolate myself for now. I’ll be back in a few. 13:15 I feel worse… feel depressed. Tired and depressed. Why? No fucking clue. Maybe its another mood swing. ADHD? Possibly. Like, I don’t exist right now 13:20 I think 1 hug from the back from her did the trick… No longer do I feel as sad. I feel slightly better now. 15:07 I’m tired. Nothing more 06/28 10:36 Today’s a good day. Happy as can be for no reason. Just a happy boy, l

This here is a compilation of thoughts that I wrote down, and I thought i'd share it with you guys, so enjoy!! I went from being energetic, from participating in classes, to just being a figure… a figure who’s just there nje. I went from getting satisfactory results to getting sub-par marks for the subjects I used to do well with. Where did I go wrong? Is it academic pressure? Is it pressure that I put on myself? Is it just me boing lazy? I was once a boy who thought only positive things who turned to being somebody who tends to overthink even the tiniest of things? Just a person with negative thoughts that tend to escape the mental prison that I "locked" them down in. “What if I get low marks?” “What if I get rejected?” All these “ what ifs ” flowing through my mind. Am I neglecting myself? Is what my dad saying true? That I’m just gonna fail? That I won’t succeed? That I’m not going to make it in life if I don't change my ways? I keep saying no, but at this stage, t

 I know some of you readers prefer chilling alone in your room, playing the music of your choice, watching YouTube or juts talking to your friends on WhatsApp (be it a voice or video call). I do this a lot as well... trying to isolate myself from the outside world that is the living room. 😂 However, sometimes you should just allocate some time to chill with your mom or your dad, or both if you're fortunate enough. For some reason, moments with them are (somewhat) unforgettable (unless you want to intentionally forget a particular moment because they brought up a topic that you didn't want to talk about). Be it taking a long walk with them, going to the mall with them or even going hiking, any time with your family is *most probably* a good time. Trust me when I say: Spend as much time as possible with them... even if they decide to press on your buttons for no apparent reason. Cherish every moment you get with them, because tomorrow is never guaranteed, and you might regret no

 *Sigh* Rejection... Taking an L. Some people say it's a part of life, and I do agree with that. There's no way anyone on earth hasn't been rejected. In fact, I guarantee almost all of you guys reading this blog have been rejected one way or another. I don't know about you all, but I can't take an L. I simply can't stand the thought of  someone saying no. Why? Well... During the valentines week of 2019, I asked a then new girl whether she wanted to be my date to the V-Ball that my school hosted that year. She said no. That whole week, I couldn't stop thinking about that moment. My mood instantly dropped. For the whole of that week, I felt off. So much so that I made the decision not to attend that year's celebration (I was meant to come with my friends). On the day of the V-Ball, which began at 16:30, I left for home straight afterschool. I may also seem shy around girls... but deep down I know that I simply cannot simply just approach a girl. Why? I'

 You know, there are regular friends, then there are special friends. Sure, with regular friends you could have a blast talking to them, cracking jokes and just having a good time together, then you get the special friends... Now these friends... these friends are one of a kind. With friends like these, you know you can have a good time with them, but also talk some deep and personal stuff with. You feel very comfortable around and with them. They'll lend you an ear for you to vent out, and they'll (occasionally) give you good advice. They'll crack you up when you feel down. They'll pick you up if you've hit rock bottom. You see these people, these people are one of the best people you'll meet! Cherish them. Savour every moment with them. Enjoy their presence! You (yes, you. The one reading this blog...) also have special friends. I'm certain about that one. You also have someone you can talk to about things happening in your life. You also have someone that

Crushes We've all had a crush on someone before, am I lying? Be it now or sometime before, when you were younger, you always had your eyes on this one boy/girl. Me, well... I've had crushes on many a girl, and many of those crushes i've never followed through with... It always started and ended the same: There's an attractive girl; I get attracted; I look at that person like a creep; it ends there 🤷🏾‍♂️ There are a few exceptions to that... namely the time I burst out of my bubble and decided to follow through with the crush... I told a girl how I felt about her... She said "we'll talk about that"... we haven't talked about it since. These days, however, that crushes 'cycle' has gone through a radical change. Now it goes like this: I see an attractive girl; I get attracted; I talk to the girl; we become friends; we talk even more(occasionally) then it kinda ends there....  I feel like shit's gonna be too awkward and probably embarassing e