The reason I'm always on my computer...

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 To most of you who know me, you may have noticed that i'm always staring at my laptop screen...

You may think that i'm a computer geek... that I know everything about comupters.

There's a bit more than that.


You see, the only reason I'm behind the screen 95% of the time is because that is the place I run to when something doesn't pan out right in my life. It's a place I run to when i'm feeling down. It's the place I run to when the outcomes don't favour me.

A computer is my safe zone, a place where I can isolate myself from the real world. It's the only place where I can control everything, kind of like a Lucid Dream. It's a place that makes me smile, a place where I can laugh alone, a place where I can't be criticized.


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  1. Unknown13 May 2021 at 10:26

    I used to wonder why you love your laptop so much..... Lol

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